Post by Deleted on Jan 27, 2012 21:17:14 GMT -5
So, the chat crew knows that for the past few months, I've been dealing with some medical maladies. Back in 2005, I was properly diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and Depression as well as Anxiety.
Post-Miscarriage, I went on a full round of treatment for the issues and remained on treatment up until, oh, say, September of this past fall. I went off all of my mental medication in Sept.
In 2005, I was also diagnosed with Spinal Stenosis, in lamens terms, I have a narrow spine that causes pressure on my nerves and can lead to severe long term damage and possible neuro damage of the brain and nervous system. I was never treated.
Fast forward to this past fall.
My whole life fell apart. I was off my medications, my mental and emotional state was a wreck, I was in a dark place and then I started getting horrible, blinding pain in my skull.
In December, most folks know, but maybe some don't, the day after Christmas, I checked myself into the mental ward of the city hospital for treatment. I spent three days there, sorting through my whole life and making sense of a lifetime of regrets and mistakes.
I'm still sorting through things, but mentally and emotionally, I'm in a better place. I've had to make alot of changes. I'm seeing a psychiatrist now, and a therapist. I'm on a new medication thats working great and I think that my new place in the world is showing in my writing.
On the other end of the spectrum, my head pain has gotten worse, and my symptoms had begun to get worse. I've started to experience slurred speech, memory lapses, confusion, muscle spasms, shaking, twitching, numbness and blurred vision. This past week, my Chiro discovered my neck is actually curved wrong, in fact he says my neck is the worst he's seen on a 28 yr old. I spoke with him about my symptoms, and he suggested a neurologist. I spoke with my PCP the following day and he changed my meds, put me on some new pain medications and referred me to a neurologist.
I see her March 14th. The next few months are going to be a slew of medical appointments, therapists, and breakthroughs. I got a long road of recovery ahead of me. I'm nowhere near out of the murky depths. I just needed to explain that, I'm not avoiding this place, or neglecting you guys. I'm not angry or arrogant. I just am dealing with so much that at times, I just want to breathe.
It doesn't help that Feb 28th is coming up, marks seven years since I lost my child. An issue I fully intend on bringing up at my session the week before. My personal life is also picking up. I'm going to be volunteering at the VFD, as a fireman/fire police, starting in March, and also in the ladies Aux. I'm going for my CPR/First Aid certs soon as well. I also may be going back to school for Medical Assisting. I've been looking for a new job too, in the Security Field.
All I ask is that you guys bear with me, as I piece my life together and start over.
Post-Miscarriage, I went on a full round of treatment for the issues and remained on treatment up until, oh, say, September of this past fall. I went off all of my mental medication in Sept.
In 2005, I was also diagnosed with Spinal Stenosis, in lamens terms, I have a narrow spine that causes pressure on my nerves and can lead to severe long term damage and possible neuro damage of the brain and nervous system. I was never treated.
Fast forward to this past fall.
My whole life fell apart. I was off my medications, my mental and emotional state was a wreck, I was in a dark place and then I started getting horrible, blinding pain in my skull.
In December, most folks know, but maybe some don't, the day after Christmas, I checked myself into the mental ward of the city hospital for treatment. I spent three days there, sorting through my whole life and making sense of a lifetime of regrets and mistakes.
I'm still sorting through things, but mentally and emotionally, I'm in a better place. I've had to make alot of changes. I'm seeing a psychiatrist now, and a therapist. I'm on a new medication thats working great and I think that my new place in the world is showing in my writing.
On the other end of the spectrum, my head pain has gotten worse, and my symptoms had begun to get worse. I've started to experience slurred speech, memory lapses, confusion, muscle spasms, shaking, twitching, numbness and blurred vision. This past week, my Chiro discovered my neck is actually curved wrong, in fact he says my neck is the worst he's seen on a 28 yr old. I spoke with him about my symptoms, and he suggested a neurologist. I spoke with my PCP the following day and he changed my meds, put me on some new pain medications and referred me to a neurologist.
I see her March 14th. The next few months are going to be a slew of medical appointments, therapists, and breakthroughs. I got a long road of recovery ahead of me. I'm nowhere near out of the murky depths. I just needed to explain that, I'm not avoiding this place, or neglecting you guys. I'm not angry or arrogant. I just am dealing with so much that at times, I just want to breathe.
It doesn't help that Feb 28th is coming up, marks seven years since I lost my child. An issue I fully intend on bringing up at my session the week before. My personal life is also picking up. I'm going to be volunteering at the VFD, as a fireman/fire police, starting in March, and also in the ladies Aux. I'm going for my CPR/First Aid certs soon as well. I also may be going back to school for Medical Assisting. I've been looking for a new job too, in the Security Field.
All I ask is that you guys bear with me, as I piece my life together and start over.
